i'm reali suprised to refind my blogspot blog here.. now is 2007 ald..
i thot this blog has been cancelled by blogger, but i found it through some stupid researching yesterday.. haha i foung my pillow club blog which was founded by doris, and her funny energised announcements and mourns.. haha.. i'm so happy to find out my buddies are actualli remembering our friendship as i do.. tt'a nice, rite?
the last entry i posted was in 2005, may.. and now, it's nealy 2007, april.. i clled this blog as a "love journey", but when i realli get into a relationship, i would not have time spend on journal writings.. and till now, too many things happened ald, and i hav no idea wad is going on in the real spirit of me.. anything changed? anything remained? i questioned a lot on a lot, but without answers, i trouble more of my mindcepts..
and now, is supposed to be the rough period of studing life for me.. a levels.. by he time i did the last journal, i was doing my olevels, and twoo year passed, have i gained anything though my stupid life experiences? enriched or faids? blanks, all blank come out of my mind..
i'm just trying to be good to everone around me, but instead of good compliments, they bully me, they make me down, they think i'm stupid and easy to be bullied.. i dun have the energy to say no, but i neva say yes, cos i am always look down at them.. rubbish..
something is gonna changed in this period of life, from march to june, from june to november.. i'm struggling with my weitght and studies, can they be balanced? i'm an adult now, u noe? then does it mean i can change myh life styles? no food no study, am i too childish? if continuously eating can make me feel happy and satisfied, when i grow fatter and fatter will i still be happy? all troubles need to be shooted down, and i'm realli struggling at all of these stuffs..
can i just tell myself go ahead and dun be afraid of anything?
but which way should i go?
i'm lost..
